Look Up When the World Get’s you Down
If you have been following me along on my Instagram lately, my life has been goin 150 MPH. I traveled to four states in three weeks for five trips. I traveled to Nashville, TN for a collaboration with an vacation rental company and to meet up with a brand, then to Sarasota, FL with my friend @josie_sanders for our first big hotel collaboration, then to New York for NYFW with my husband, then back to Nashville, TN for two launch events for brands, and then to Michigan for one of my dearest friend’s bachelorette party.
The everyday girl looking in would assume I went on 5 vacations and all I did was eat good food and get “free” stuff, that my life is perfect, and nothing is going wrong in my life. And you know what, I can 100% understand why most would see it that way. My job is to share and promote products and services that I love! What you see on my stories, instagram, and blog are just highlights of my life. They are the good-ish parts; the parts that I feel comfortable sharing about. I want my blog to be a space that balances both positivity and creativity. I want to be relatable and share the candid parts of my life with you all! However, there is SO much that you do not see or know about. This blog post is not a pity party post. What I am about to say in the next few paragraphs is not intended to make you feel sorry for me; they are intended to remind you that no one is perfect and that we are all human.
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During the middle of these trips I had something very traumatic happen within my family. This is not the space to share the details and only a handful of people actually know. However, it was heart breaking and very discouraging. This problem has been going on for almost a decade now, but it was taken to a whole new level a week ago. The hardest part about what happened is that it was 100% preventable and this person made this decision. Everything happened a few days before I left for New York and to be honest, I haven’t had time to process everything until I got back a day or so ago. Sitting here in my office thinking about what happened, I am feeling every emotion: sadness, numbness, loneliness, denial, anger, love, and just about every other emotion. I keep on asking God why my family? Why now? Why does it have to be this way? Why can’t this person choose us over the decision made? Why can’t everyone be on the same page? Why can’t you just give us a solution on what to do?
In the end there is NOTHING I can say or do to change this situation. God already has it figured out and all he wants me to do is to let go. Guys, it is the hardest thing in the world for me to do this. I mean, what exactly is letting go? Is ” letting go” giving up?
But as I am writing this, I never really asked myself what I needed to let go. The world is telling me that “letting go” means letting go of this person. THAT IS A LIE. What God wants me to let go is my grip on handling and figuring out a solution to this situation. God is greater, God is stronger, I will never figure out God and that is OKAY.
So what does this have to do about anything?
Our world (Satan) is deceiving and out to tear us each other apart. Whether if through the world’s view on beauty, success, marriage, physical appearance, or even feeling accepted – the world will find any leverage to use against us to make us feel less or not enough. Satan hates us and wants us to lose. He think he is winning when we are at our weakest. NEWSFLASH: He has already lost – thousands of years ago when Christ died on the cross for EVERY person of EVERY ethnicity to save us from what we deserved — death. For the person who feels hopeless and feels like they are falling down a downward spiral and feel like they are a slave to something of this world — Christ won that battle years ago, all you have to do is to let go, and let God.
For the person who feels like their life is out of control:
A good friend of mine shared this little trick a year or so ago. It is also inspired by the movie “The War Room” (I highly recommend watching it!) In the movie, “The War Room” a wife who found out her husband is having an affair decided to take action by praying privately for her husband in her closet AKA her “War Room”. Both my friend and this movie pushed me to create a space in my house that is designated for prayer – for me it is my closet or an old goodwill chair in the corner of my office. This room is where battles take place. This is the room where I can find victory – only through Jesus Christ. After praying my requests to God my friend told me to read this scripture below OUT LOUD several times. I still do it do this day.
Psalms 34: (ESV)
I will bless the Lord at all times;
his praise shall continually be in my mouth.
My soul makes its boast in the Lord;
let the humble hear and be glad.
Oh, magnify the Lord with me,
and let us exalt his name together!
I sought the Lord, and he answered me
and delivered me from all my fears.
Those who look to him are radiant,
and their faces shall never be ashamed.
This poor man cried, and the Lord heard him
and saved him out of all his troubles.
The angel of the Lord encamps
around those who fear him, and delivers them.
Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good!
Blessed is the man who takes refuge in him!
Oh, fear the Lord, you his saints,
for those who fear him have no lack!
The young lions suffer want and hunger;
but those who seek the Lord lack no good thing.
Come, O children, listen to me;
I will teach you the fear of the Lord.
What man is there who desires life
and loves many days, that he may see good?
Keep your tongue from evil
and your lips from speaking deceit.
Turn away from evil and do good;
seek peace and pursue it.
The eyes of the Lord are toward the righteous
and his ears toward their cry.
The face of the Lord is against those who do evil,
to cut off the memory of them from the earth.
When the righteous cry for help, the Lord hears
and delivers them out of all their troubles.
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted
and saves the crushed in spirit.
Many are the afflictions of the righteous,
but the Lord delivers him out of them all.
He keeps all his bones;
not one of them is broken.
Affliction will slay the wicked,
and those who hate the righteous will be condemned.
The Lord redeems the life of his servants;
none of those who take refuge in him will be condemned.
I am writing this post knowing that it will not change anyone. However, God can and he can see our hearts and knows all of our secrets. — The best part is that despite who we are or what we have done in the past or present – HE STILL LOVES YOU!
To my loved one: I love you more than you can image – but God loves you more. YOU are loved and YOU are enough.
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